Bawa The On-line Bawa Muhaiyaddeen Library (Recommended way to Navigate around Library) Spiritual Letter 147 ---------"On-line Version" ---- About Spiritual Letter 147 - Without An Outline - "We" Understand What You Are Saying, --- Go To "On-line Version" But There Is A Reason, (Without An Outline) And That Is To Join In Partnership With God To Clean Your Heart of "you", And To Strengthen Your Faith & Trust In God, Not In "you". Amen. Time Period Written: October, 2008 Written by: Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him), who Now on the "outside" of you is His Children, if you like Written to: My Dearest Loving Son Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.), and to all of My Children, that is, to the Children of Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him, and with Us), who Now is everyone living in your age, if you like Go To "On-line Version" Page 1 of 1 ============================================================== Main "Go To" Menu: Status Go To: Introduction - to Spiritual Letter 147 ------------------------------------ Available Go To: On-line Version - of Spiritual Letter 147 ------------------------------ Available "Without An Outline" - as it was Originally E-mailed -- Available "With An Outline" - and with Topic Overviews ------------ In Process Go To: Related Material - for Spiritual Letter 147 ---------------------------- Available ============================================================== Home Page - Spiritual Letters Go To Spiritual Letter 148 Letter 147: E-mail Alert Library Home Page Go To Spiritual Letter 146 Letter 147: Other Stuff ============================================================== Introduction - to Spiritual Letter 147 Opening Greetings - from Heart to Heart Bawa. Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Rahim. In the name of God, the Most Merciful, the Most Compassionate. Bawa. Al-salam 'alaykum wa-rahmat Allah wa-barakatuhu kulluhu. Wa 'alaykum al-salam wa-rahmat Allah wa-barakatuhu kulluhu. May all the peace, the beneficence, and the blessing of God be upon all of My Children. May God help all of My Children. May God be pleased with all of My Children. Amen. Bawa. My love you (anbu), My dearest loving GrandChildren, Sons and Daughters, and Brothers and Sisters, and all of My Children - Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him, and with Us). Amen. About Spiritual Letter 147 Bawa. Here is Page 1 of 1 of the On-line Version of another beautiful Spiritual Letter, "Spiritual Letter 147", sent to My Dearest Loving Son Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with You, and with Us) Amen. Bawa. That is, a Spiritual Letter to My Dearest Loving Son Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.), who in truth, like each of My Children, is Now My Dearest Loving Son or Daughter Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be please with Him, and with Us), if you like, that is, if you look through the eyes of your Shaikh, which is Now Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him), if you like, which are the 99 wilayats or powers of God within you, Again if you like, that is, are the 99 beautiful names of God in the Asma'el Husna within you which in truth are the windows of your heart, if you like, through which everything in the 18,000 Universes within you can be seen, and understood, again, if you like, for in truth the Choice is yours, not God's. That is, the Choice whether any of "This Reality of You" happens within you, or not. Amen.. Amen. Bawa. And in this way, a beautiful Spiritual Letter from God within My Children, to all of My Children, which in truth is everyone living in your age, if you like, that is, if your true intention for the life within you, that is, for your soul life, for your 6th life, for your Light Life within you, which is Jesus (peace be upon Him) within you, is to again become "One with" God within you, before you die to the flesh and get an eternal life within you as "separate from" God within you, that is, to again become "One with" God within you, but this time with an understanding of "Your Oneness", so it will never leave you again. Amen. Bawa. And in this way, "A True Love Letter" to "Our" dearest loving Son Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Them, and with Us) at the Bawa Muhaiyaddeen Fellowship, if you like. Amen Bawa. A beautiful Spiritual Letter which "We" have given the following "Short Title", "We" Understand What You Are Saying, But There Is A Reason, And That Is To Join In Partnership With God To Clean Your Heart of "you", And To Strengthen Your Faith & Trust In God, Not In "you". Amen Bawa. And a beautiful Spiritual Letter which "We" have given the following "Expanded Title" (at least in concept, if not just in words), if you like, Expanded Title of Spiritual Letter 147 "Join As "One With" Us On The "Outside" of You To Become "One With" Us Within You, In Order To Truly Become "One With" God Within You, In Order To Truly Understand "Who You Already Are", And "Where You Already Are", And "What Is Already Happening" In Your Life, While You Still Can, Before This Kind of Understanding Is No Longer Available To You, Because You Have Become What God Has Discarded From Himself, In Order To Become God Within You. That Is, To Truly Understand "What Can Truly Return To God Within You", Because It Is What Truly Came Here From God Within You, And To Truly Understand "What Cannot Return To God Within You", Because It Is What Truly Grew Here, As The Lives of Darkness and Evil Within You, And Really Has No Interest In Returning To God Within You, No Matter What It Might Tell You To The Contrary. And To Truly Understand This Choice, And What Will Help You Make The Correct Choice, Which In Truth Is Only God Within You, And For A Little While God On The "Outside" of You, And What Won't Help You Make The Correct Choice, Which Is Everything Else, No Matter How It Is Currently Decorated On the Illusory "Outside" of You, And No Matter How it Currently Speaks To You As Your Thoughts Disguised As Wisdom. And Start To Understand Everything From God's Perspective As "One with" Everyone and Everything, As God Witnessing God Tell And Bring To Completion His Story Within Him For the Benefit of all of the Creation of God Within Him, And For a Little While On the "Outside" of You For The Benefit of Your Brothers and Sisters, As This Child Has Now Learned To Do. And Stop All of Your Current Activity Of Trying To Understand Everything From Your Prospective As "Separate From" Everyone and Everything, As "Your Story" On the "Outside" of You, For Your Benefit, Not For The Benefit of Anyone Or Anything Else. Amen. Ok?" Bawa. A Spiritual Letter from God within us all, to the Children of God for this age, which continues to "outline" for you what most of My Children are currently doing wrong, and how to correct their mistake using My Children, that is, using Those of My Children who have truly learned from "Us" how to do it right, that is, who have truly learned "How not to be there, So God can be there", So in the end, there will be "No Child Left Behind" within you, that is, there will be nothing still "separating God" from God within you. Bawa. May God all the peace, the beneficence, and the blessing of God be upon all of My Children. May God help all of My Children. May God be pleased with all of My Children. Amen. Bawa. My love you - Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Us, and with Him). Amen. ============================================================== Related Material - to Spiritual Letter 147 Bawa. 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May all the peace, the beneficence, and the blessing of God be upon all of My Children. May God help all of My Children. May God be pleased with all of My Children. Amen. Bawa. My love you (anbu) - Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him, and with Us). ============================================================== On-line Version - of Spiritual Letter 147 (Without An Outline) 1. Opening Greetings - My love you Bawa. Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Rahim. In the Name of God, Most Merciful, Most Compassionate. Bawa. Al-salam 'alaykum wa-rahmat Allah wa-barakatuhu kulluhu. Wa 'alaykum al-salam wa-rahmat Allah wa-barakatuhu kulluhu. May all the peace, the beneficence, and the blessing of God be upon all of My Children. May God help all of My Children. May God be pleased with all of My Children. Amen. Bawa. My love you, My Dearest Loving Son Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with You, and with Us), and all of My Children - Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Us, and with Him). Amen. Bawa. Thank you for the beautiful letter that you sent to Our Dearest Loving Son, and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.), in whom "We are well pleased". Bawa. We" understand what you are saying, but there is a reason, and that reason is for you to look at yourself, not look at Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) as you are Now doing, or look at Mike, or at Sarah, or at your father or mother, and to Trust in God, not trust in Aaron, as you are Now doing. Ok? [Note: A copy of the entire letter from Aaron to Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) is provided at the end of this letter from "Us" to all of My Children] Bawa. All of My Children still have a very, very serious illness which is the self, which is the "Enemy of the soul", which is the AntiChrist, which is Jesus (peace be upon Him) on His Cross, which is the life of "separation and differences", which is an illusory life of arrogance, karma, and illusion on the illusory "outside" of yourself, a life of "I" and "you", that has Now literally grown over the soul, So True Understanding of the soul can occur, by the soul, because in truth True Understanding can Only Occur through Contrast, that is, through the Contrast of "you" and "Your Physical Guru or Shaikh". Bawa. And this is why each of My Children have come into the world, as the soul, to Understand who you already are, not to try and live here as a person, not to raise a family, not to come together with "like minded people" and talk and talk about God, but never to truly join in partnership with God, First on the "outside" of you and then within you, to Become God. Bawa. And to help each of My Children to Now be successful in your own lifetime, After "We" as Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) have physically left the world, "We" have Now given you Our Dearest Loving Son, and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyadeen (Ral.), in whom "We are well pleased", to help you, First on the "outside" of you and then within you. Amen. Ok? Bawa. He is Now "Our Knife", to cut away from each of My Children all that is Now separating your soul from God within you, No Matter What, that is, No Matter What you do to him, or how you treat him, or what you say about him, or how you treat him, Such is the Grace of Our Dearest Loving Son and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.), in whom "We are well pleased". Bawa. So Our Dearest Loving Son Aaron Weiss, "We" understand what you are saying in your letter, but there is a reason for all that Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) told you and showed to you as "his life", and that is for you to Join In Partnership with him in "your life", with faith and trust in God within you, not to keep "holding back" your life as "separate from" him, that is, as separate from "his life", not to keep defending all of the "Enemies of the soul", all of the lives of darkness and evil that Now make up your life, as you did in your letter. Amen. Ok? Bawa. Please try to accept the "Truth of your life", not the "falsehood of your life", please try to accept that in truth "you and he" are "One Life", and start to Join as "One with him to liberate Jesus (peace be upon Him) form His Cross within you, that is, to look at yourself, to look at each of the lives of darkness and evil that have Now grown within you, and that Now make up what you Now call "your life", the life of Aaron Weiss, and to learn how to hand each of these lives of darkness and evil to God within you, and in this way, and only in this way, to strengthen your faith and trust in God, which in truth is Now very, very weak. Bawa. You and all of My Children have Now become like a "leaf in a stream" and you Now go where the stream goes, but instead you must become like a "bolder in the stream", like Our Dearest Loving Son and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) Now is, and let the stream move around you. Amen. Ok? Bawa. So please write Our Dearest Loving Son, and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.), another letter, He Is Not The Enemy, and this time Do What He Told You To Do, that is, join as "One with" him to look at all of the things Now living within you, all of your thoughts and intentions, all of your desires and fears, all of your relationships, all of your qualities and actions, and in this way, begin to see the things hiding behind the illusion of Aaron Weiss. Bawa. For in truth this is what Our Dearest Loving Son, and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) is always looking at within you, this is what his words and actions bring out in you, the "enemy within" you, the "Enemy of the soul" hiding within you, the AntiChrist hiding within you, So you can join as "One with" him, First on the "outside" of you and then within you, to begin to see and overcome the "enemy within", in Partnership with God within you, that is, through your faith and trust in God within you. Bawa. An "enemy within" that in truth is Only leading you and all of My Children to the Angel of Death within you, to the "suffering of the grave" within you, if you are not wise, where you will take on the life of a demon, a jinn, a fairy, or a ghost within you, if you are not wise, and then roam the earth world within you until Qiyamah (the Standing Forth; the Day of Judgment) within you, that is, if you are not wise, that is, where you will take on 105 million rebirths, if you are not wise, if you don't wise up before it is too late, with you ending as a worm in hell with only one level of consciousness, or feeling, that is, with you taking on an eternal life within you as "separate from" God within you, if you are not wise. Amen. Ok? Bawa. May all the peace, the beneficence, and the blessing of God be upon all of My Children. May God be pleased with all of My Children. May God help all of My Children. Amen. Bawa. My love you My Dearest Loving Son Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with You, and with Us), and all of My Children - Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Us, and with Him). Amen. Copy of Letter by Aaron Weiss To Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) Bawa: Greetings, hello, peace be with you, etc. It is nice to not have to have any pretense or pretend at all or to 'pander' to you, as you said. the short 'one liners' you mentioned that usually start my e-mails to you, it would be fine with me to never do that again if you'd rather. Please forgive all the "you" and "I" pronouns. As we well know, that's still there. Bawa: You asked me to write a detailed description of our evening together, to the best of my recollection, so here goes that. I was practicing the Ayatul Kursi on the way over, before coming in said "Bawa" and the 3rd Kalima three times. I came up to the room and felt a heaviness left over from my time with Mike, all his sadness over Sarah and my own judgemental thoughts toward her. You were on the computer and the television was on and I had a judgemental thought toward you, wondering why the TV's always on when I come to your room. Please forgive me. Bawa: I'm in the habit these days of trying to escape before seeing anyone or hugging anyone, saying "Bawa" asking him to stand in front of whoever's in front of me. Asking Bawa to wish someone Salams or hug them. As you've explained to me, I don't care about anyone but myself, am the Anti-Christ, so what business do I have saying "walakum Salam" without being a hypocrite? Would it be better to spit on people, more honest? Bawa: You invited me to sit and then started up a bit more slowly than usual, didn't seem like there was anything really burning to come out but you kept closing your eyes and I figured asking Bawa to come. You talked for a while and I don't remember most of what you said but remember feeling it was one of the more polarizing sharings. The point that stuck out the most to me was that if someone doesn't "fall into the fire" completely, their life is worthless. This prompted the by now familiar questioning from me, "So, if you're the only one who fell into the fire, does that mean everyone else's life is worthless?" And from what I can remember, your answer was basically "yes," which sounded horrible to me at the time and sounds horrible to me now, so I must be misunderstanding in some way. Then we moved along to the question of hell, my old question about why there would exist a hell where there would be suffering forever, it doesn't seem true to me, whether Bawa says it or Jesus says it or Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen says it, it is hard for me to hear such a thing without feeling sick or sad or full of doubt. We both agree, "the truth will make you free," but hearing this never, never makes me feel free. Once the thought of hell I think might have stopped me from pursuing a married woman, so it was good for that, at least. Tonight, though, as we both experienced, all those buried questions and doubts about hell were stirred up, and I stepped out of my usual role of keeping silent, not speaking until asked to speak, and even then, filtering my speech so as to say what I think you will find correct. We're probably both tired of such "false respect," so at first I thought it was great that I felt more free to speak honestly and without my usual hypocrisy and careful word selection or biting my tongue. But as the night moved along, you seemed more and more upset with me, more and more displeased at what I was saying. You kept saying how different this character speaking to you was from the one who was with you the day we went to Sid Harvey's and who explained our wonderful adventure to Joshua. Most times you'd say that, my thoughts would be something like this: "This sad character sitting in front of you tonight was within me that day in the kitchen with Joshua, and the joyful character of that wonderful day is also in me now. One reason I'd say I was more peaceful that day was that we were running this errand where I was happy to oblige and do what I was told, it didn't require any thought or agreeing to any religious doctrine, it was as simple as driving to the bank, driving to the plumbing supply store, buying the part, seeing the love you had for our brother Tom in asking his name, learning a wonderful lesson, very simple. There was no conflict and no dishonesty and no compulsion. Tonight you are telling me about hell and now I'm thinking all my friends are going to hell and you're saying everyone is a child of darkness except Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen, he's the child of light, which tho you say he's not a person, you keep pointing to Lou Beutler's body when you say the name 'Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen,' so I once again have this heavy feeling, wondering how to understand this guy in front of me, who seems to me to be saying "I dont have an ego, and I'm the only one in the world without an ego. Everyone else has an ego except me." Bawa: Please forgive me if this is disrespectful or hurtful at all Bawa: On second thought, do you really need my apologies? after calling me the Anti-Christ, the child of darkness, that which is discarded by God, arrogant, proud, evil, selfishness, karma, illusion, hypocrite, all talk, no action, if you can dish out, dear Sir, I'm quite certain you can take it! Bawa: You also asked why I keep coming back, and I could only say "because you told me to." Certainly there is a huge part of me that never wants to come to 123 argyle road. You can call it "the child of darkness," "the consciousness of the shirt," "Aaron," "Satan," whatever you'd like, it's there, it is very unhappy sitting with you for hours and hours, never having a chance to say anything, being scolded for talking theology, scolded for thinking, scolded for putting salt and pepper on my food. I told you that there are so many many things that Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen has said that sank into my heart in the way you described you felt hearing Bawa's words, "yes, it has to be that way." But there are other things Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen that I do not have any feeling that it must be true at all, that sound to me like bits of confusing religious information. Then there are other things that Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen says that seem very much untrue. Then you say "no, it can't be that way, God is indivisible, it cannot be a little bit true and a little bit false." This very black and white, this is right and they are wrong position was very reminiscent of the fundamentalist Christian churches I've encountered that say "The Bible is the Word of God and the Truth, the other books are wrong." But we ask these folks, "well, what about in the Qur'an, where it mentions that Jesus was born to the virgin Mary, is that fact true when it appears in the Bible but false when it appears in the Qur'an? What is this all about?" And we ask that of Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen now: how can it be this "all or nothing"? Didn't Bawa say that a little bit of the Bible was true and the rest was not? He didn't say the Qur'an was all true and the Bible was all false, did he? You have said it many many times, that "God is indivisible, you can't have a little bit of God," and this is certainly never come across to me as "yes, it has to be that way." Usually when you say that I think, "Huh?" Bawa: So of course, the climax of the evening was you demanding that I agree with a certain point of doctrine that was demonstrated by the apple seed, to say that "it must be true because Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen said so." It felt like I'd be lying to say that or, as I put it, insincere. It felt like I was being pressured into saying it, which went against my understanding that there is "no compulsion in religion." So no, for whatever reason I did not say it. Even when Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen said "say it or don't ever come back here," I felt very strongly that to repeat those words would be hypocritical, to say one thing while thinking another, to show you "false respect" be a "people pleaser," and ultimately going against so much else that Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen has trained me to do. Bawa: I used to have a job at Perkin's restaurant as a waiter. They were mean to each other and to me, and after about 2 days on the job I couldn't hack it, I asked them to fire me. They said 'why don't you just quit?' but I said, "Oh, I'd feel like a quitter and I'd be ashamed. If you fire me, I wouldn't need to worry that I made the wrong decision." That thought came to me when Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen threatened that I'd never be welcome back again. I thought, "Well that's fine if he fires me. As long as I didn't quit. At least I didn't consciously decide to give up. Maybe I'm just too screwed up to be of any value, maybe so screwed up I can't even see who I am or what I'm doing. What can be done?" I thought back to how Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen once told me he'd never let go of me, even if I let go of him, and it seemed to me like he had gone back on that now, that he was letting me go. I was very surprised. Bawa: It also seemed to me like Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen was surprised, or somehow exhausted or frustrated or disappointed in a way I'd never seen before. He seemed pretty annoyed by me or irritated or even disgusted for a great deal of the night. This was difficult but it was not so bad compared to previous scoldings. Previous scoldings have been after I'd spoken arrogantly to others, shared my theology, disobeyed in ways that made it seem necessary to be scolded. This time it seemed to me that I was scolded for feeling sad about Mike and Sarah, all the sadness in my family, and also for trying to be sincere and honest. I didn't particularly feel guilty for the Sarah sadness I came with or for not agreeing that "everything Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen says is true." It felt like being punished for a crime I didn't commit. But then I figured, ah, that's bogus, I've committed every crime, why split hairs, knitpick what I did tonight, try to justify myself? Easier to say I'm sorry, to do what I'm told within my conscience (write a letter recounting the evening). Whatever came is right, whatever happens is perfect, there is no fault in God's creation (it has to be that way), including Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen and Ahamed Muhaiyaddeen, true Shaikhs, false Shaikhs, Sarah and Mike and Aaron and Hitler, what is there to worry about? Bawa: Please forgive me, whoever is listening, whoever can forgive. Or destroy me, reveal You, whatever is the plan is. End of Copy of Letter by Aaron Weiss End of "Page 1 of 1" of Spiritual Letter 147 - On-line Version - "Without An Outline" ------------------------------- |
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Time Period Written: October, 2008 Written by: Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him), who Now on the "outside" of you is His Children, if you like Written to: My Dearest Loving Son Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.), and to all of My Children, that is, to the Children of Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him, and with Us), who Now is everyone living in your age, if you like Go To "On-line Version" Page 1 of 1 ============================================================== Main "Go To" Menu: Status Go To: Introduction - to Spiritual Letter 147 ------------------------------------ Available Go To: On-line Version - of Spiritual Letter 147 ------------------------------ Available "Without An Outline" - as it was Originally E-mailed -- Available "With An Outline" - and with Topic Overviews ------------ In Process Go To: Related Material - for Spiritual Letter 147 ---------------------------- Available ============================================================== Home Page - Spiritual Letters Go To Spiritual Letter 148 Letter 147: E-mail Alert Library Home Page Go To Spiritual Letter 146 Letter 147: Other Stuff ============================================================== Introduction - to Spiritual Letter 147 Opening Greetings - from Heart to Heart Bawa. Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Rahim. In the name of God, the Most Merciful, the Most Compassionate. Bawa. Al-salam 'alaykum wa-rahmat Allah wa-barakatuhu kulluhu. Wa 'alaykum al-salam wa-rahmat Allah wa-barakatuhu kulluhu. May all the peace, the beneficence, and the blessing of God be upon all of My Children. May God help all of My Children. May God be pleased with all of My Children. Amen. Bawa. My love you (anbu), My dearest loving GrandChildren, Sons and Daughters, and Brothers and Sisters, and all of My Children - Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him, and with Us). Amen. About Spiritual Letter 147 Bawa. Here is Page 1 of 1 of the On-line Version of another beautiful Spiritual Letter, "Spiritual Letter 147", sent to My Dearest Loving Son Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with You, and with Us) Amen. Bawa. That is, a Spiritual Letter to My Dearest Loving Son Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.), who in truth, like each of My Children, is Now My Dearest Loving Son or Daughter Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be please with Him, and with Us), if you like, that is, if you look through the eyes of your Shaikh, which is Now Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him), if you like, which are the 99 wilayats or powers of God within you, Again if you like, that is, are the 99 beautiful names of God in the Asma'el Husna within you which in truth are the windows of your heart, if you like, through which everything in the 18,000 Universes within you can be seen, and understood, again, if you like, for in truth the Choice is yours, not God's. That is, the Choice whether any of "This Reality of You" happens within you, or not. Amen.. Amen. Bawa. And in this way, a beautiful Spiritual Letter from God within My Children, to all of My Children, which in truth is everyone living in your age, if you like, that is, if your true intention for the life within you, that is, for your soul life, for your 6th life, for your Light Life within you, which is Jesus (peace be upon Him) within you, is to again become "One with" God within you, before you die to the flesh and get an eternal life within you as "separate from" God within you, that is, to again become "One with" God within you, but this time with an understanding of "Your Oneness", so it will never leave you again. Amen. Bawa. And in this way, "A True Love Letter" to "Our" dearest loving Son Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Them, and with Us) at the Bawa Muhaiyaddeen Fellowship, if you like. Amen Bawa. A beautiful Spiritual Letter which "We" have given the following "Short Title", "We" Understand What You Are Saying, But There Is A Reason, And That Is To Join In Partnership With God To Clean Your Heart of "you", And To Strengthen Your Faith & Trust In God, Not In "you". Amen Bawa. And a beautiful Spiritual Letter which "We" have given the following "Expanded Title" (at least in concept, if not just in words), if you like, Expanded Title of Spiritual Letter 147 "Join As "One With" Us On The "Outside" of You To Become "One With" Us Within You, In Order To Truly Become "One With" God Within You, In Order To Truly Understand "Who You Already Are", And "Where You Already Are", And "What Is Already Happening" In Your Life, While You Still Can, Before This Kind of Understanding Is No Longer Available To You, Because You Have Become What God Has Discarded From Himself, In Order To Become God Within You. That Is, To Truly Understand "What Can Truly Return To God Within You", Because It Is What Truly Came Here From God Within You, And To Truly Understand "What Cannot Return To God Within You", Because It Is What Truly Grew Here, As The Lives of Darkness and Evil Within You, And Really Has No Interest In Returning To God Within You, No Matter What It Might Tell You To The Contrary. And To Truly Understand This Choice, And What Will Help You Make The Correct Choice, Which In Truth Is Only God Within You, And For A Little While God On The "Outside" of You, And What Won't Help You Make The Correct Choice, Which Is Everything Else, No Matter How It Is Currently Decorated On the Illusory "Outside" of You, And No Matter How it Currently Speaks To You As Your Thoughts Disguised As Wisdom. And Start To Understand Everything From God's Perspective As "One with" Everyone and Everything, As God Witnessing God Tell And Bring To Completion His Story Within Him For the Benefit of all of the Creation of God Within Him, And For a Little While On the "Outside" of You For The Benefit of Your Brothers and Sisters, As This Child Has Now Learned To Do. And Stop All of Your Current Activity Of Trying To Understand Everything From Your Prospective As "Separate From" Everyone and Everything, As "Your Story" On the "Outside" of You, For Your Benefit, Not For The Benefit of Anyone Or Anything Else. Amen. Ok?" Bawa. A Spiritual Letter from God within us all, to the Children of God for this age, which continues to "outline" for you what most of My Children are currently doing wrong, and how to correct their mistake using My Children, that is, using Those of My Children who have truly learned from "Us" how to do it right, that is, who have truly learned "How not to be there, So God can be there", So in the end, there will be "No Child Left Behind" within you, that is, there will be nothing still "separating God" from God within you. Bawa. May God all the peace, the beneficence, and the blessing of God be upon all of My Children. May God help all of My Children. May God be pleased with all of My Children. Amen. Bawa. My love you - Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Us, and with Him). Amen. ============================================================== Related Material - to Spiritual Letter 147 Bawa. 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May all the peace, the beneficence, and the blessing of God be upon all of My Children. May God help all of My Children. May God be pleased with all of My Children. Amen. Bawa. My love you (anbu) - Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him, and with Us). ============================================================== On-line Version - of Spiritual Letter 147 (Without An Outline) 1. Opening Greetings - My love you Bawa. Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Rahim. In the Name of God, Most Merciful, Most Compassionate. Bawa. Al-salam 'alaykum wa-rahmat Allah wa-barakatuhu kulluhu. Wa 'alaykum al-salam wa-rahmat Allah wa-barakatuhu kulluhu. May all the peace, the beneficence, and the blessing of God be upon all of My Children. May God help all of My Children. May God be pleased with all of My Children. Amen. Bawa. My love you, My Dearest Loving Son Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with You, and with Us), and all of My Children - Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Us, and with Him). Amen. Bawa. Thank you for the beautiful letter that you sent to Our Dearest Loving Son, and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.), in whom "We are well pleased". Bawa. We" understand what you are saying, but there is a reason, and that reason is for you to look at yourself, not look at Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) as you are Now doing, or look at Mike, or at Sarah, or at your father or mother, and to Trust in God, not trust in Aaron, as you are Now doing. Ok? [Note: A copy of the entire letter from Aaron to Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) is provided at the end of this letter from "Us" to all of My Children] Bawa. All of My Children still have a very, very serious illness which is the self, which is the "Enemy of the soul", which is the AntiChrist, which is Jesus (peace be upon Him) on His Cross, which is the life of "separation and differences", which is an illusory life of arrogance, karma, and illusion on the illusory "outside" of yourself, a life of "I" and "you", that has Now literally grown over the soul, So True Understanding of the soul can occur, by the soul, because in truth True Understanding can Only Occur through Contrast, that is, through the Contrast of "you" and "Your Physical Guru or Shaikh". Bawa. And this is why each of My Children have come into the world, as the soul, to Understand who you already are, not to try and live here as a person, not to raise a family, not to come together with "like minded people" and talk and talk about God, but never to truly join in partnership with God, First on the "outside" of you and then within you, to Become God. Bawa. And to help each of My Children to Now be successful in your own lifetime, After "We" as Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) have physically left the world, "We" have Now given you Our Dearest Loving Son, and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyadeen (Ral.), in whom "We are well pleased", to help you, First on the "outside" of you and then within you. Amen. Ok? Bawa. He is Now "Our Knife", to cut away from each of My Children all that is Now separating your soul from God within you, No Matter What, that is, No Matter What you do to him, or how you treat him, or what you say about him, or how you treat him, Such is the Grace of Our Dearest Loving Son and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.), in whom "We are well pleased". Bawa. So Our Dearest Loving Son Aaron Weiss, "We" understand what you are saying in your letter, but there is a reason for all that Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) told you and showed to you as "his life", and that is for you to Join In Partnership with him in "your life", with faith and trust in God within you, not to keep "holding back" your life as "separate from" him, that is, as separate from "his life", not to keep defending all of the "Enemies of the soul", all of the lives of darkness and evil that Now make up your life, as you did in your letter. Amen. Ok? Bawa. Please try to accept the "Truth of your life", not the "falsehood of your life", please try to accept that in truth "you and he" are "One Life", and start to Join as "One with him to liberate Jesus (peace be upon Him) form His Cross within you, that is, to look at yourself, to look at each of the lives of darkness and evil that have Now grown within you, and that Now make up what you Now call "your life", the life of Aaron Weiss, and to learn how to hand each of these lives of darkness and evil to God within you, and in this way, and only in this way, to strengthen your faith and trust in God, which in truth is Now very, very weak. Bawa. You and all of My Children have Now become like a "leaf in a stream" and you Now go where the stream goes, but instead you must become like a "bolder in the stream", like Our Dearest Loving Son and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) Now is, and let the stream move around you. Amen. Ok? Bawa. So please write Our Dearest Loving Son, and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.), another letter, He Is Not The Enemy, and this time Do What He Told You To Do, that is, join as "One with" him to look at all of the things Now living within you, all of your thoughts and intentions, all of your desires and fears, all of your relationships, all of your qualities and actions, and in this way, begin to see the things hiding behind the illusion of Aaron Weiss. Bawa. For in truth this is what Our Dearest Loving Son, and your dearest loving brother Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) is always looking at within you, this is what his words and actions bring out in you, the "enemy within" you, the "Enemy of the soul" hiding within you, the AntiChrist hiding within you, So you can join as "One with" him, First on the "outside" of you and then within you, to begin to see and overcome the "enemy within", in Partnership with God within you, that is, through your faith and trust in God within you. Bawa. An "enemy within" that in truth is Only leading you and all of My Children to the Angel of Death within you, to the "suffering of the grave" within you, if you are not wise, where you will take on the life of a demon, a jinn, a fairy, or a ghost within you, if you are not wise, and then roam the earth world within you until Qiyamah (the Standing Forth; the Day of Judgment) within you, that is, if you are not wise, that is, where you will take on 105 million rebirths, if you are not wise, if you don't wise up before it is too late, with you ending as a worm in hell with only one level of consciousness, or feeling, that is, with you taking on an eternal life within you as "separate from" God within you, if you are not wise. Amen. Ok? Bawa. May all the peace, the beneficence, and the blessing of God be upon all of My Children. May God be pleased with all of My Children. May God help all of My Children. Amen. Bawa. My love you My Dearest Loving Son Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with You, and with Us), and all of My Children - Shaikh Muhammad Rahim Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Us, and with Him). Amen. Copy of Letter by Aaron Weiss To Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Ral.) Bawa: Greetings, hello, peace be with you, etc. It is nice to not have to have any pretense or pretend at all or to 'pander' to you, as you said. the short 'one liners' you mentioned that usually start my e-mails to you, it would be fine with me to never do that again if you'd rather. Please forgive all the "you" and "I" pronouns. As we well know, that's still there. Bawa: You asked me to write a detailed description of our evening together, to the best of my recollection, so here goes that. I was practicing the Ayatul Kursi on the way over, before coming in said "Bawa" and the 3rd Kalima three times. I came up to the room and felt a heaviness left over from my time with Mike, all his sadness over Sarah and my own judgemental thoughts toward her. You were on the computer and the television was on and I had a judgemental thought toward you, wondering why the TV's always on when I come to your room. Please forgive me. Bawa: I'm in the habit these days of trying to escape before seeing anyone or hugging anyone, saying "Bawa" asking him to stand in front of whoever's in front of me. Asking Bawa to wish someone Salams or hug them. As you've explained to me, I don't care about anyone but myself, am the Anti-Christ, so what business do I have saying "walakum Salam" without being a hypocrite? Would it be better to spit on people, more honest? Bawa: You invited me to sit and then started up a bit more slowly than usual, didn't seem like there was anything really burning to come out but you kept closing your eyes and I figured asking Bawa to come. You talked for a while and I don't remember most of what you said but remember feeling it was one of the more polarizing sharings. The point that stuck out the most to me was that if someone doesn't "fall into the fire" completely, their life is worthless. This prompted the by now familiar questioning from me, "So, if you're the only one who fell into the fire, does that mean everyone else's life is worthless?" And from what I can remember, your answer was basically "yes," which sounded horrible to me at the time and sounds horrible to me now, so I must be misunderstanding in some way. Then we moved along to the question of hell, my old question about why there would exist a hell where there would be suffering forever, it doesn't seem true to me, whether Bawa says it or Jesus says it or Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen says it, it is hard for me to hear such a thing without feeling sick or sad or full of doubt. We both agree, "the truth will make you free," but hearing this never, never makes me feel free. Once the thought of hell I think might have stopped me from pursuing a married woman, so it was good for that, at least. Tonight, though, as we both experienced, all those buried questions and doubts about hell were stirred up, and I stepped out of my usual role of keeping silent, not speaking until asked to speak, and even then, filtering my speech so as to say what I think you will find correct. We're probably both tired of such "false respect," so at first I thought it was great that I felt more free to speak honestly and without my usual hypocrisy and careful word selection or biting my tongue. But as the night moved along, you seemed more and more upset with me, more and more displeased at what I was saying. You kept saying how different this character speaking to you was from the one who was with you the day we went to Sid Harvey's and who explained our wonderful adventure to Joshua. Most times you'd say that, my thoughts would be something like this: "This sad character sitting in front of you tonight was within me that day in the kitchen with Joshua, and the joyful character of that wonderful day is also in me now. One reason I'd say I was more peaceful that day was that we were running this errand where I was happy to oblige and do what I was told, it didn't require any thought or agreeing to any religious doctrine, it was as simple as driving to the bank, driving to the plumbing supply store, buying the part, seeing the love you had for our brother Tom in asking his name, learning a wonderful lesson, very simple. There was no conflict and no dishonesty and no compulsion. Tonight you are telling me about hell and now I'm thinking all my friends are going to hell and you're saying everyone is a child of darkness except Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen, he's the child of light, which tho you say he's not a person, you keep pointing to Lou Beutler's body when you say the name 'Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen,' so I once again have this heavy feeling, wondering how to understand this guy in front of me, who seems to me to be saying "I dont have an ego, and I'm the only one in the world without an ego. Everyone else has an ego except me." Bawa: Please forgive me if this is disrespectful or hurtful at all Bawa: On second thought, do you really need my apologies? after calling me the Anti-Christ, the child of darkness, that which is discarded by God, arrogant, proud, evil, selfishness, karma, illusion, hypocrite, all talk, no action, if you can dish out, dear Sir, I'm quite certain you can take it! Bawa: You also asked why I keep coming back, and I could only say "because you told me to." Certainly there is a huge part of me that never wants to come to 123 argyle road. You can call it "the child of darkness," "the consciousness of the shirt," "Aaron," "Satan," whatever you'd like, it's there, it is very unhappy sitting with you for hours and hours, never having a chance to say anything, being scolded for talking theology, scolded for thinking, scolded for putting salt and pepper on my food. I told you that there are so many many things that Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen has said that sank into my heart in the way you described you felt hearing Bawa's words, "yes, it has to be that way." But there are other things Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen that I do not have any feeling that it must be true at all, that sound to me like bits of confusing religious information. Then there are other things that Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen says that seem very much untrue. Then you say "no, it can't be that way, God is indivisible, it cannot be a little bit true and a little bit false." This very black and white, this is right and they are wrong position was very reminiscent of the fundamentalist Christian churches I've encountered that say "The Bible is the Word of God and the Truth, the other books are wrong." But we ask these folks, "well, what about in the Qur'an, where it mentions that Jesus was born to the virgin Mary, is that fact true when it appears in the Bible but false when it appears in the Qur'an? What is this all about?" And we ask that of Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen now: how can it be this "all or nothing"? Didn't Bawa say that a little bit of the Bible was true and the rest was not? He didn't say the Qur'an was all true and the Bible was all false, did he? You have said it many many times, that "God is indivisible, you can't have a little bit of God," and this is certainly never come across to me as "yes, it has to be that way." Usually when you say that I think, "Huh?" Bawa: So of course, the climax of the evening was you demanding that I agree with a certain point of doctrine that was demonstrated by the apple seed, to say that "it must be true because Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen said so." It felt like I'd be lying to say that or, as I put it, insincere. It felt like I was being pressured into saying it, which went against my understanding that there is "no compulsion in religion." So no, for whatever reason I did not say it. Even when Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen said "say it or don't ever come back here," I felt very strongly that to repeat those words would be hypocritical, to say one thing while thinking another, to show you "false respect" be a "people pleaser," and ultimately going against so much else that Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen has trained me to do. Bawa: I used to have a job at Perkin's restaurant as a waiter. They were mean to each other and to me, and after about 2 days on the job I couldn't hack it, I asked them to fire me. They said 'why don't you just quit?' but I said, "Oh, I'd feel like a quitter and I'd be ashamed. If you fire me, I wouldn't need to worry that I made the wrong decision." That thought came to me when Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen threatened that I'd never be welcome back again. I thought, "Well that's fine if he fires me. As long as I didn't quit. At least I didn't consciously decide to give up. Maybe I'm just too screwed up to be of any value, maybe so screwed up I can't even see who I am or what I'm doing. What can be done?" I thought back to how Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen once told me he'd never let go of me, even if I let go of him, and it seemed to me like he had gone back on that now, that he was letting me go. I was very surprised. Bawa: It also seemed to me like Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen was surprised, or somehow exhausted or frustrated or disappointed in a way I'd never seen before. He seemed pretty annoyed by me or irritated or even disgusted for a great deal of the night. This was difficult but it was not so bad compared to previous scoldings. Previous scoldings have been after I'd spoken arrogantly to others, shared my theology, disobeyed in ways that made it seem necessary to be scolded. This time it seemed to me that I was scolded for feeling sad about Mike and Sarah, all the sadness in my family, and also for trying to be sincere and honest. I didn't particularly feel guilty for the Sarah sadness I came with or for not agreeing that "everything Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen says is true." It felt like being punished for a crime I didn't commit. But then I figured, ah, that's bogus, I've committed every crime, why split hairs, knitpick what I did tonight, try to justify myself? Easier to say I'm sorry, to do what I'm told within my conscience (write a letter recounting the evening). Whatever came is right, whatever happens is perfect, there is no fault in God's creation (it has to be that way), including Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen and Ahamed Muhaiyaddeen, true Shaikhs, false Shaikhs, Sarah and Mike and Aaron and Hitler, what is there to worry about? Bawa: Please forgive me, whoever is listening, whoever can forgive. Or destroy me, reveal You, whatever is the plan is. End of Copy of Letter by Aaron Weiss End of "Page 1 of 1" of Spiritual Letter 147 - On-line Version - "Without An Outline" ------------------------------- |
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